I was the bad mom at the mall today......

[hey mommy]

I should have been home packing, but instead dragged my sick butt(I have bronchitis) and my grumpy DS to the mall to get presents for his preschool teachers, then to my IL's house to pick up boxes so that I can pack. By the time we left the mall, DS, who rode in a stroller the whole time, was grumpy, didn't want to do what I said, plopped donw on the ground and wanted to stay there. it was a mall stroller, so we had to leave it in the mall. Thankfully though, it's a very small mall.

I need to listen to that voice in my head that says "stay home! You shouldn't go. It'll be a disaster. Just GO HOME". But instead, I ignore it and forge on.. Big mistake.

As we got back to the truck, I was yelling at DS, saying bad words that I never use unless I'm mad. One lady walking through the parking lot kept staring at us, so I finally said "I'm just having a bad day, don't worry about it!" and sat in the truck w/the a/c running and collected myself before getting on the road w/all the boneheads who don't k now how to drive. So I apologized to ds, and then made the mistake of asking him "mommy is just a bad mommy, huh?".. He nodded yes.. I broke down in tears b/c I knew he was right. I'm crying now too... And I've realized that I drag the poor kid all over every store, but never to the park or any place fun that he wants to go. What kind of mother does that? UGH... I'm hoping once we move back to town where parks are closer than 20 min. away, we'll go more. I feel like I'm always rushing him from one store to the other to hurry up and get things done so we can get home before it gets to late.. I am SOOO glad we're moving this weekend.. I can't do this anymore......

[Cheyenne]

:hugheart :hugheart You're not a bad mom. :no

[AmyDoll]

You're not a bad mom... A bad mom wouldn't have cried or apologized. Tomorrow is a new day. :hugheart

[Gentle Journey]

I'm guilty of taking my kids everywhere but where they'd like to go too. :hug2

[Titus2Momof4]

:hugheart You're not a bad mom at all. You are going through what is known as 'moving stress'--the packing, the figuring out what to keep/what to toss, packing alone, only one day where you're gonna have help, the packing, a kid needing attention while you need to be packing, the packing, figuring out how to fit everything into boxes that are annoying b/c they are too big/too small, the packing, knowing that 1wk from today you are going to be living somewhere else, and HOW, since you wanna cry when you think about......the packing.

BTDT :hug :heart

[Sarai]

You are not a bad mom! :hugheart You stopped, you apologized- that's what a loving mom who's having a bad day does. :heart
I've BTDT, too- a couple of weeks ago we had a really rough morning and I ended up yelling at DS. We were finally in the car, backing down the driveway, and I looked back and saw DS sitting in his carseat w/tears. I stopped the car in the driveway, got out, and got in back with him. I apologized, asked for his forgiveness, and just started bawling like a baby. My sweet boy gave me a hug and said "Don't cry mama, I f'give you!" :happytears

:pray your move goes smoothly and the stress lifts soon. :hug

[summertimeshine]

:hugheart

[Hermana Linda]

We all have days like that. This too shall pass. :hugheart

[Blue Aurora]

:hugheart

[mom2threePKs]

oH MAN, MOMMA, WHAT A STINKY DAY! i'M SO SORRY IT WAS SO HARD FOR YOU AND FOR YOUR DS.

Oops. Sorry bout the caps lock. Cat likes to get on here and make me scream both literally and in internet etiquette...

I had a bad day on thursday. AF came for a visit. Had to take dd for a doctor's appointment with a specialist at 7:30 a.m. which necessitated a 5:30 wake up and hour long drive in traffic in the dark in the rain. Long story but specialists are scary. By the end of the day, I was fried. And my kids felt my "friedness." I had to apologize and explain to my dd who's 10 that I was ehausted, stessed about sister's doc appointment and dealing with hormones. She forgave me as only a child can but know what she asked me when i woke her up the next morning? "So mom, how'd you sleep? Good I hope." She didn't want to deal with a grumpy mom again. :cry :cry :cry

I hope your move went o-kay. Tell you what, you forgive yourself for your bad parenting moment and I'll work on forgiving myself for mine. :hug2

Magan

[Titus2Momof4]

oH MAN, MOMMA, WHAT A STINKY DAY! i'M SO SORRY IT WAS SO HARD FOR YOU AND FOR YOUR DS.

Oops. Sorry bout the caps lock. Cat likes to get on here and make me scream both literally and in internet etiquette...

I had a bad day on thursday. AF came for a visit. Had to take dd for a doctor's appointment with a specialist at 7:30 a.m. which necessitated a 5:30 wake up and hour long drive in traffic in the dark in the rain. Long story but specialists are scary. By the end of the day, I was fried. And my kids felt my "friedness." I had to apologize and explain to my dd who's 10 that I was ehausted, stessed about sister's doc appointment and dealing with hormones. She forgave me as only a child can but know what she asked me when i woke her up the next morning? "So mom, how'd you sleep? Good I hope." She didn't want to deal with a grumpy mom again. :cry :cry :cry

I hope your move went o-kay. Tell you what, you forgive yourself for your bad parenting moment and I'll work on forgiving myself for mine. :hug2

Magan


:hugheart that sounds rough!

[Marsha]

btdt...it's embarrassing, but we have to have grace for ourselves too. I am less apt to freak out at my child's next public tantrum when Ir emember my own..........and that's basically what it is, yk?
(((hugs)))