kwisie
10-01-2006, 06:52 PM
When I was growing up, I knew that God loved me, sent Jesus for me, etc., but I was always afraid of Him. I just knew that if I ever really gave my life to Him, He'd take away everything I liked, make me miserable, and punish me for every remotely wrong thing I did, as well as every good thing I was supposed to do and didn't. I completely avoided anyone that didn't believe exactly like I did, especially the ones that did things on the unwritten list of sins.
Fortunately, over the last several years, my entire way of thinking on these topics has changed. Upon reading posts here as well as the GBD book, I'm starting to understand where so much of this came from. Knowledge really is power in this situation.
I also now understand that my parents disciplined us as they did b/c of what they were raised with and what they were taught in parenting classes at church. I remember them talking about how grateful they were for a church that had parenting seminars and classes to help them. Unfortunately, the help they got was what so many people have gotten at church, a very punitive, us-versus-them style. And based on what I remember from that church, the theology totally matched. :no2 (We found somewhere much less rigid when I was an older teen.)
I am so thankful for my DH who challenged my thinking on everything. He has been the catalyst that has moved me from where I was to where I am now. :clap
Anyway, I just had to get these thoughts out. Excuse my rambling.
Fortunately, over the last several years, my entire way of thinking on these topics has changed. Upon reading posts here as well as the GBD book, I'm starting to understand where so much of this came from. Knowledge really is power in this situation.
I also now understand that my parents disciplined us as they did b/c of what they were raised with and what they were taught in parenting classes at church. I remember them talking about how grateful they were for a church that had parenting seminars and classes to help them. Unfortunately, the help they got was what so many people have gotten at church, a very punitive, us-versus-them style. And based on what I remember from that church, the theology totally matched. :no2 (We found somewhere much less rigid when I was an older teen.)
I am so thankful for my DH who challenged my thinking on everything. He has been the catalyst that has moved me from where I was to where I am now. :clap
Anyway, I just had to get these thoughts out. Excuse my rambling.