Re: Spanking "works"
Spanking "worked" on me.
It "worked" to instill fear...of failure, of "disobedience" (although I may or may not know why something was disobedient), of my parents.
Was my behavior outwardly acceptable? Most of the time.
Did I understand the whys and wherefores of acceptable behavior? Nope. I was just conditioned to act a certain way. Now that I'm in my 30's, I'm finally internalizing beliefs that it appeared I was holding to my entire life. I was play-acting my faith, and I was afraid to truly throw myself on God's grace b/c I didn't know if I was good enough. Yes, I was told "God's grace is sufficient" but my parents' grace wasn't, and that was the whole of my experience.
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