I FINALLY did the reading
I thought carefully and I actually think I have come really far. WHat's left of my "passive agressive" behavior is more "wishywashy" than anything.
Example -- last night during bedtime reading. The kids are supposed to be lying down while I read and relaxing.
Alyssa was arranging all her stuffed animals, plaing with them (standing, sitting)
I stopped and said "Alyssa. . . (I did wait for her attention
) What are you supposed to be doing right now? . . .. I was really asking and waiting. . .. then I realized what I was doing -- giving an indirect command, not assertive . . . and I said "lie down and relax your body." she looked at me startled and responded "I am arranging my stuffed animals and getting the bed ready to crawl in" I said "finish quickly and hop in the bed, pull up the sheet and relax" She did.
I do this often - ask my kids what they were supposed to do
In a very kind way because I'd like them to remember but I still want to stop
today's goals (to be added to the goals from the beginning of the week
1. stop asking my kids "what are you supposed to be doing right now?" or "what did I ask you to do" - give directives
2. utilize assertivenes with my dh - I tend to be not assertive in this relationship
3. slow down and use nonverbal communication with my verbal commhnication AFTER I have the child's attention
4. Add p 96 to my cheat sheets and DO IT
5. p 77 (drop 2 beliefs from column A, pick up 2 from Column B)