Please forgive me if this has been mentioned earlier in the thread but I'm hearing words like "drained" and "overwhelmed" and I'm wondering if you've gotten to a doctor to get checked out. Thyroid? Adrenals? Depression? Those things can stop you in your tracks despite your best efforts
They can't be an excuse and for years I just had to do things that had to be done (for a short while fear of CPS motivated me enough to do it) but when my health was bad I sometimes couldn't even *see* what needed to be done even though I knew the house was a mess.
How are *you* taking care of you?