(((((Traci))))))
Welcome to GCM!
I think it is wonderful that you are wanting to seek God's will as to how to be a good Christian wife and mother.
The first thing I would do is throw that book away!!!!
Do a search for Debi Pearl and you will learn why!
If that is why you feel so defeated, it is the book, not you!
We all have times where we get behind and stay there for a while. I like Flylady's motto 'You are not behind. Don't try to catch up. Just jump in where you are" Somethng like that.....
Honestly, the tasks of homekeeping and mothering are so endless, that we are not behind. We just do it when it gets done!
I am hardly qualified to be mentor in this area, as homekeeping is my largest struggle in life. But there are lots of moms in the same boat as you here and lots of good threads about how to get going and such.
We can all help each other grow and do better!