[euromom]

As of right now I am going to go ahead and have surgery It is scheduled for next Thurs I have MANY mixed feelings and emotions about it, especially the part about being seperated from dd2 for that time. I have not been able to pull up enough info on the flush with my size of stones though it seems that people have passed them even bigger than that. But I have also read that there is controversy over if they really are stones that pass or just hardened olive oil? It just seems that eventually what will most likely happen is that at some point in my life my gallbladder will most likely need to come out. As of right now I am eating next to nothing and even with that I still have a constant dull pain in my side, especially at night when I go to bed. I fear to even lay on my stomach or right side for fear that even that will bring on an attack (last attack I was sleeping on my stomach when it happened) I am just so ready to get and feel better...though I know there are consequences to the surgery and I may never feel 100% again, it seems from what I have heard and researched that it's gotta be better then where I am at right now. At least on the bright side I can now fit into clothes I wore BEFORE having ds 5yrs ago. I am LOVING that part Helps me feel a whole lot better about the whole thing. I think if I wasn't to the point of not being able to eat much at all then I would fight to keep my gallbladder, but one can only live on salad and apples for so long. I feel like I am on Survivor when they drool over the thought of food and chocolate and hamburgers and such. Though I plan on keeping a healthy diet even after surgery, it will be nice to venture out and eat a bit more than I can right now I hope. I have this fear that I will be one of the ones that still has issues even after it is out