I have to tell you that I can see, just from these few posts, how God is working in your heart and repairing your relationship with your children.
I'm so glad you're here.
My mom gave me TTUAC and told me to use it to break my children's will. Thankfully, I wasn't very deeply into it before I started searching for something that seemed better. GCM is the biggest blessing I could have asked for. It taught me what to do when I determined not to spank. I haven't spanked in forever.
Ask lots of questions.
Everyone here likes to offer help.