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Originally Posted by saturnfire16
Saying that stuff just makes me angry though. I feel like a victim and then I feel weak and weakness is not acceptable, so I get mad at myself for being weak and even madder at whoever I imagine to be persecuting me.
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then keep talking in the moment
keep on: "... and now that i said this, i feel like such a pathetic weakling and very angry. and i understand that this is not healthy, and i am safe in this place to be weak, people around me will love me when i am weak, God loves me in my weakness" .... i love the song that says: "all my weaknesses made perfect in his unending love"
and i didn't at all wanted to give you an impression that someone has to be my level of screwed-uppedness to experience these things
certainly, being raised by Dobson, and subtle emotional/spiritual abuse, all that is more than enough to create such response