BeckaBlue
04-21-2005, 05:06 PM
how much more can i take?!?!?!? im going nuts!
2 things-
nik has been raging a lot yesterday/today, he got a lucky charms marshmellow, and this seems to be a very main reaction (besides eczema/hives) of getting corn, even tiny amounts. I know why he's doing it, and i understand it's hard for him to stop, but at the same time im getting so tired of being smacked, yelled at, headbutted, kicked, bitten etc... all the bearhugging in the world doesn't help cuz when he's in a rage he wants let down, and if he's not well confined he will go after one of the girls, or me (literally go after, running at them and attacking), so instead im the one who'd getting beat up because he wants to run crazy. I jsut try to remember he's mad about something and at the same time try to figure out a way to help, which is where i think i get crazy, because i dunno what can help and when he's like this there's no changing until he's extended enough of it.
next is the constant wrestling. if one of the girls are laying on the couch or sitting on the floor he zones in and there's their hair! he goes behind them and grabs their hair to pull em down and wont let go, i hafta squeeze his arms and hell finally let go and come off. he's like a cat about any objects hanging down, he sees it and hasta get it! abbeys favorite hat is a priness one that has a hangy-downer in the back, hes constantly pulling it down. anything sitting anywhere to him is to be pulled down and dumped out, thrown, or whatever he can figure to do with it. EVERYTHING in his reach. any minute recharger breaks are NOT AT ALL compatable with him, by the time i'd come out the fridge would be emptied, stuff spilled everywhere, kids on the floor crying because he's got them in a headlock, all out terror and devastation, think those hurricanes looked bad? try leaving him alone for a few minutes!
dh is getting even more frustrating and hes not even around him near as much as me! he wants to spank, but at he same tme he agrees that hitting for hitting doesnt make sense. as it is im alone in the discipline dpt as he's too easily angered, but im afraid im not doing very good at it :( im getting too frustrated. i think i need a perspective change, I'm having a very tough time keeping from anger right now :(
2 things-
nik has been raging a lot yesterday/today, he got a lucky charms marshmellow, and this seems to be a very main reaction (besides eczema/hives) of getting corn, even tiny amounts. I know why he's doing it, and i understand it's hard for him to stop, but at the same time im getting so tired of being smacked, yelled at, headbutted, kicked, bitten etc... all the bearhugging in the world doesn't help cuz when he's in a rage he wants let down, and if he's not well confined he will go after one of the girls, or me (literally go after, running at them and attacking), so instead im the one who'd getting beat up because he wants to run crazy. I jsut try to remember he's mad about something and at the same time try to figure out a way to help, which is where i think i get crazy, because i dunno what can help and when he's like this there's no changing until he's extended enough of it.
next is the constant wrestling. if one of the girls are laying on the couch or sitting on the floor he zones in and there's their hair! he goes behind them and grabs their hair to pull em down and wont let go, i hafta squeeze his arms and hell finally let go and come off. he's like a cat about any objects hanging down, he sees it and hasta get it! abbeys favorite hat is a priness one that has a hangy-downer in the back, hes constantly pulling it down. anything sitting anywhere to him is to be pulled down and dumped out, thrown, or whatever he can figure to do with it. EVERYTHING in his reach. any minute recharger breaks are NOT AT ALL compatable with him, by the time i'd come out the fridge would be emptied, stuff spilled everywhere, kids on the floor crying because he's got them in a headlock, all out terror and devastation, think those hurricanes looked bad? try leaving him alone for a few minutes!
dh is getting even more frustrating and hes not even around him near as much as me! he wants to spank, but at he same tme he agrees that hitting for hitting doesnt make sense. as it is im alone in the discipline dpt as he's too easily angered, but im afraid im not doing very good at it :( im getting too frustrated. i think i need a perspective change, I'm having a very tough time keeping from anger right now :(