Tengokujin
04-20-2005, 08:24 PM
How do I mentally get back on track when I have messed up and wronged my DS?? I am trying to exercise more control over my thoughts, and evaluate them for untruth, but I start a downward spiral. I feel worse and worse, and then I act worse and worse.
I am following the LGP as well, but I wonder f sometimes I am bottling anger or feelings instead of choosing and acknowledging them. It just seemsthat my pattern is one where I am patient, graceful, using good discipline tools, and then wham! I have lost it. :cry
Could it be that on some level I am thinking that I deserve better outcomes because I am using positive discipline tools, etc.?? I guess that would be a lie, because we use positive discipline tools because they are right,not necessarily because they "work" better, although in general they do. I hope that makes sense--I am not questioning GBD here.
How do you "visualize" your patience? Do you see it as something that can be used up? Or do you see patience as something that is available to you as much as you need it? I think that I see my patience as something that can be used up, and I wonder if that is a problem.
I am really struggling with my mental talk, and I could really use input/encouragement/kicks in the rear.
I think I need to replace my "I am a bad mommy who has soooo much wrong with her. How can I ever raise this child to not be twisted like a pretzel with all my weirdness?" with "I am a good mommy who cares enough about Ds to discipline herself to be an even better mommy. I will raise this child to be a healthy person because he will see me work on my own self with authenticity and openness."
Looking forward to all your wisdom to flow to me...
I am following the LGP as well, but I wonder f sometimes I am bottling anger or feelings instead of choosing and acknowledging them. It just seemsthat my pattern is one where I am patient, graceful, using good discipline tools, and then wham! I have lost it. :cry
Could it be that on some level I am thinking that I deserve better outcomes because I am using positive discipline tools, etc.?? I guess that would be a lie, because we use positive discipline tools because they are right,not necessarily because they "work" better, although in general they do. I hope that makes sense--I am not questioning GBD here.
How do you "visualize" your patience? Do you see it as something that can be used up? Or do you see patience as something that is available to you as much as you need it? I think that I see my patience as something that can be used up, and I wonder if that is a problem.
I am really struggling with my mental talk, and I could really use input/encouragement/kicks in the rear.
I think I need to replace my "I am a bad mommy who has soooo much wrong with her. How can I ever raise this child to not be twisted like a pretzel with all my weirdness?" with "I am a good mommy who cares enough about Ds to discipline herself to be an even better mommy. I will raise this child to be a healthy person because he will see me work on my own self with authenticity and openness."
Looking forward to all your wisdom to flow to me...